Ever had to wake up asking yourself “why am i here”I used to. I never liked being here, being around, never liked having to follow the rules or have to act like someone else just to be cool or be one of the popular people.I have gone threw a lot but im not gonna act like that makes me any better than anyone else. Yes, i may be stronger than you in different ways. (Mentaly). I think i have seen a lot for only be 16 years old. I mean ive seen people in the worst conditions possible. Ive seen them in their best, but the thing is that i stuck by them no matter what it was. I never gave up. Yes, it was really hard at times. It was also very painful in ways i can not even start to discribe. But overall when you go threw something like i have. YOU have to be the strong one YOU  need to be the one to show everyone we can get threw this all good or bad. People will see that you can get threw anything. I have really learned a lot. And i am actually finally putting it all together and using all my lessons to be able to live a good life.I wanna be able to have a relationship with my father again. We have not been as close lately but i mean we have things we both have to work on. Mostly me. I need to show my dad he cant trust me. I know i  have done a lot of stupid things that would mess up our relationship. But i mean im not gonna be home much longer i wanna make us stronger than ever cus i know im gonna miss you once i leave and its gonna suck not havin you around all the time.

I have really figured out life lately. I hope that one day i can show the world that i can help people amd that i want to be able to help people.